We have been through such a steep learning curve with Lane’s Leukemia. Within one day we were coming off of all antibiotics and fever suppressing medicines like Tylenol and Ibuprofen to see if he was better from his recurrent and odd symptoms, to an Emergency room visit and Ambulance ride straight to Primary Children’s Immune Compromised Hematology and Oncology floor. It all happened so fast that it reminded me of my favorite hymn “Lead Kindly Light”
1.Lead, kindly Light, amid th’encircling gloom; Lead thou me on! The night is dark, and I am far from home; Lead thou me on! Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see The distant scene—one step enough for me. 2.I was not ever thus, nor pray’d that thou Shouldst lead me on. I loved to choose and see my path; but now, Lead thou me on! I loved the garish day, and, spite of fears, Pride ruled my will. Remember not past years. 3.So long thy pow’r hath blest me, sure it still Will lead me on O’er moor and fen, o’er crag and torrent, till The night is gone. And with the morn those angel faces smile, Which I have loved long since, and lost awhile!
I used to think this Hymn fit my service in Sydney Australia as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. As I rode in the ambulance with my son, and the subsequent days and nights in Primary Children’s Hospital these verses played through my mind and heart. We didn’t have all the answers and we needed to follow the Doctor’s plans to save his life, “Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see The distant scene– One step enough for me.”